I should not be surprised as this all started when I was a lot younger. I can't really pin point how it happened but I think being too protected when I was little, not being allowed to go out beyond my apartment complex carries a tiny bit of the blame. I had nothing to do. TV gets boring after awhile and if my sister and I had to hang with each other all the time we would go crazy.
It started small. Just standard, regular doses to make me feel better and pass the time. But soon the need grew. What used to be an amusing distraction became a craving that could not be quelled with mediocre sources. I needed the good stuff, the stuff that releases the mind, brings my imagination to places I didn't think existed, brought vibrant images in front of me even when my eyes closed, stuff that changed a boring evening to an absolute adventure.
It got so bad that I changed small daily habits so I could incorporate it more into my life. This lasted for many years. However, as you all know (I am assuming if you read this blog that you know me) I am a person very cognizant of my responsibilities and what I need to get done. And so, with high school and the increased pressure to work hard for my future I learned to turn the need off.
But this effect was always temporary. As soon as winter break and summer came I was always back at it. Medical school threw off this habit a little harder, yet it has found its way back. AND YUP I AM GOING TO BE A TOTAL NERD HERE...I'm talking about reading.
Hahaha, I was such a fiction addict as a child. I used to check out 5+ books at a time from the library - no joke! I took baths so I could read. I was yelled at because I read at dinner and in the twilight as the rest of my house slept. And now...I've been hit again and have gladly stayed up nights to read addicting novels (I finished 2 this weekend!). It's like meeting up with an old lover, that feeling of not wanting to let go...just until the next chapter. hahahahahaha, i am soooooo cheesy and dorky. Sorry guys! Don't worry - I have grown to adapt to these periods of intense reading binges. It doesn't affect my full professional or social life but rather my sleep until my tiredness beats out the craving. Until then...loving the kindle for mac app.
